Rarely regret what I do or what happens to me. But I would do anything to turn back time so that I could stop it from happening. I've never had any bad thing haunting me every night for so long. Now everytime I try to fall aslep, I see all of the worst things I can imagine flash before my eyes. Waking up at night and being suffocated by the thought of it kills me. What's worse is having to pretend it's not hurting anymore because life can only be lived forward.